Last night was a night that everyone hopes to sleep, but I found it difficult. Not sure if it was the jet lag still hanging around or if it was simply the emotions building in anticipation of what was to come. We got up and had breakfast at the hotel and then at 9:30 we were off. We got to the government building around 9:45 and everyone was anxiously pouring off the bus. The babies and kids are brought in at different times. Some come from different cities and orphanages. When we arrived some of the babies were already there and as we walked in, the families met their babies. Our little angel wasn’t there yet. As I waiting anxiously, I called Amy (my wife) on facetime and began to wait with her. We wanted to be able to share this moment together. Although slow, it worked and she was able to still take part in the gotcha day. Our little angel arrived with 2 other babies from the same orphanage in Zhoukou. All 3 were little girls and when they got out of the car, we all knew this was the moment we were waiting for as we were the only families that had 3 from the same orphanage. As they approached the building, the first one came in and it wasn’t her. When the second one came in, immediately I recognized her face. It was a feeling nobody can describe. She had no idea as she came in what was getting ready to happen, but I was one proud daddy. They call out the babies name and when they called her name, I was standing right there with arms open. You can read and watch stories about this day, but nobody can tell you how the babies will react. Some cry, some shut down and some go pretty seamlessly. Through lots of prayer about this day, I believe her transition was covered and she was at total peace. It was only moments from that time that she was smiling and laughing with me. No words can describe how that moment felt. This was a pregnancy of 11 years and finally a precious little girl in my arms. The first sign of a smile was the moment when I leaned my forehead against hers. As we looked each other in the eyes, she started moving her head from side to side allowing our foreheads to roll across each other. I was smiling and then on the other side I saw an angel. As she smiled back at me with a huge grin, I couldn’t help myself. It was as if she knew at that moment that she was ok. The most amazing feeling as you sit in the room and watch kids who for whatever reason have been rejected by parents and society. My heart was overwhelmed with emotions. As tears build in my eyes, I can only think about one thing. Parents were sitting and standing with arms open wide to what others had rejected. The same way in which our God sits with arms open for us no matter what we have gone thru or what we have done. There is no sight of any blemish. It is only beauty that we see in those faces just as he sees in us. . After this experience, I can certainly say that there is a huge reward. A little child with nowhere to go and nobody to love them as a family is just heartbreaking. Watching the change in her face over the course of 1 day has been an awesome experience. I could type forever and not be able to tell you everything.
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My first smile with my Daddy |
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First bottle at the Hotel |
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Smiles coming out little by little |